BUT, we have a plan.
My partner is in charge.
I am going to sit in my chair by the door and use meditation techniques to behave myself and not crack inappropriate jokes.
If the couples therapist blows it I DON’T HAVE TO GO BACK!
Well, at least not to this one. Next on the hit list is a woman who lived at Kripalu and is part of the Buddhist psychology movement.
Which does not mean she’s sane. I mean, SHE’S A THERAPIST.
Nevertheless, I will attempt to behave myself today between 6 and 7pm.
It will be hard.
I am now going to write about rage and study my mind/body syndrome book. I don’t know if it will help with couples therapy, but it certainly seems to be alleviating physical pain, and, therefore, removing a similarity I have with my German mother, which is certainly a relief.
PS-3 nights of sleeping on my side! Almost no pain, and when I get twinges I pull my attention back to everything that pisses me off and the pain, WHOOSH, disappears. It’s kind of like meditating on rage, all day long.
PPS-I have to do something about that. It just isn’t all that pleasant.